The Wrong Side Of The Bed


Sometimes the best thing is to just wait for it all to blow over...

Sometimes the best thing is to just wait for it all to blow over…

I am off to a late start this morning because I definitely got up on the wrong side of the bed. Often when I start the day in a funk I am able to identify what it is that set me on the wrong track: not sleeping well, a late start, being awakened by a cat scratching, etc.

Today there seemed to be no excuse.

True I’d found it difficult to fall asleep because I’d overdone it with the movie watching and had about a million voices replaying in my head and competing to be heard, but once I got asleep I don’t recall dreaming or having trouble staying asleep. Apparently it is an introvert trait to replay words over and over in one’s head. I know it happens when I overdo it on social engagements: the first day on a new job echoes in my head for hours after I get home.

So watching a lot of movies in rapid succession resulted in quite a lot of brain-noise and I could certainly use that as an excuse for getting up on the wrong side of the bed, but it seemed like there was more to it than that. Whilst I was lying awake in the night listening to the competing inner dialogues I could feel something else at work. There was a part of my mind that was working to find and expose all the little guilts and shames and anxieties and fears that I’d ever experienced. Little emotional wounds that I hadn’t thought about in years were suddenly bubbling to the surface again.

It makes for a very negative and poisonous mind-space. There are women who talk about “sending out good energy” into the universe and this is usually the point at which I stop listening to them, but even a skeptic as salty as myself knew that I didn’t want to leak any of this bad mood into the wider world around me.

So I am off to a late start today after spending a few hours getting my head on straight. With a bit of luck things will go smoothly from here.

~ by Gwydhar Gebien on June 24, 2013.

3 Responses to “The Wrong Side Of The Bed”

  1. I hope your day gets better! On another note I have nominated you for the “Most Creative Blogger Award”,well deserved! 🙂 Should you choose to accept this Award check out my post http://followyourheartandlifewillfollow.wordpress.com/ And happy Blogging! 🙂

  2. I know. Movies can be bad for one’s sleep at night!

  3. As a fellow introvert, I know your situation all too well.

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