When Introverts Overdo It


These frames from The Oatmeal sums up my mental state over the weekend better than I can.

The Oatmeal says it best.

With so many class related commitments taking up my time the precious “free” day that I have is often spent vegging in front of  the television and just letting my brains melt out of my ears for a while.

I really wanted yesterday to be one of those days. Torn between classwork, coffee meetings, a series of comedy seminars, helping a friend on a shoot, and putting in the requisite amount of time in the post production lab on my own projects left me more than a little bit worn out.

“I have the weekend free.” Went my reasoning, “I should at least make the effort to catch up on some of this work. And put in some face time at this panel discussion. And set up some meetings so I can get off campus for a while. I really have no excuse not to.

At least, I didn’t think that I had an excuse not to. Sure, I knew that I was pushing the limits of my endurance and I could probably use a rest, but I didn’t want to miss out on good opportunities either. I didn’t think being an Introvert counted as a valid excuse for not putting forth my best effort to meet with people and spend time pursuing filmmaking outside of class.

Turns out that I was wrong.

Sometime on Saturday afternoon my inner Introvert manifested itself while I was in the middle of working on some editing and announced: WE’RE GOING HOME NOW. It then dropped the mic and walked offstage.

“But wait!” I protested. “There’s more stuff I need to do!”

My brain gave me the finger and went into it’s room and slammed the door. It didn’t come out for the rest of the evening. I didn’t sleep much. It’s hard to sleep with your brain shut up in it’s room blaring Avicii’s “Wake Me Up” across your mind space. Pun not intentional. Stupid brain. Making jokes at my expense.

By the next morning my brain still had not emerged. My emotions, like small children, had discovered they could run rampant and get into all kinds of nooks and crannies where they are generally Not Allowed. The morning was bathed in anger and tears and an intense hatred of Avicii. I finally had to cut myself off from surfing Facebook after seeing photo after photo after photo of my classmates working on their projects because even though I had spent the day so overtired that my face was melting out of my eyes and nose I still felt left out because I wasn’t helping them.

It’s not often that I think of Introversion as a weakness: generally it is a temperament that I’m pretty proud of, but it sure gets in the goddamn way sometimes. I don’t want to believe that Introversion is an excuse for anything, but I’m beginning to realize that time to myself isn’t something that I want so much as it is something that I actually need and that I shouldn’t feel guilty for taking it.

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~ by Gwydhar Gebien on November 10, 2013.

2 Responses to “When Introverts Overdo It”

  1. Love this! I have totally felt this way…

  2. Introverts are the best ❤ I have felt this way so many times! It's definitely not a weakness to feel like you need a little alone time. Great post and you've gained a new follow. Can't wait to read more!

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