Don't over-think, don't over-think, don't over-think, don't ... shit...

Don’t over-think, Don’t over-think, Don’t over-think, Don’t … shit…

I had a few meetings scheduled up in Burbank today so I thought I would take the opportunity to stop by a little store called The Writer’s Store. As the name suggests, The Writer’s Store is full of books about writing. You might not know it based on my posts here, but I’ve been struggling with my writing for the past few days.

There are several reasons for this. One reason is that I am massively over-thinking the things that I am trying to write. Another is that I’ve been watching too much “Californication” which waxes poetic about what a cool, admired writer Hank Moody is (while never ever giving us a single sample of his work to judge this designation for ourselves) and I keep wanting to be a cool, admired artist myself and I live in constant fear of discovering that this isn’t true. Another is the fact that I am supposed to be re-writing a script for the classes which begin in a week and I don’t have an imminent deadline to force my hand so I keep second guessing myself.

Over-thinking, second guessing, and fear of not being good enough are three things I am, sadly, very good at. I’ve had a lot of practice. Being on term break means having more than the usual amount of free time to dedicate to the practice of these three nefarious talents. So  I did the natural thing and procrastinated. I arranged a few meetings on the other side of the city in order to get out of the house for a few hours and maybe get some perspective and inspiration. I had coffee with a friend at Warner Brothers, picked up a few books at the Writer’s Store, had lunch with my sister, went for a walk, drove home and forced myself to sit down and get to work.

As much as I like to lament my perennial lack of free time I am beginning to think that free time isn’t very good for me. Keeping busy seems to keep me focused. I get more worn down from idling than I do from running.

~ by Gwydhar Gebien on January 3, 2014.

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