Heavy Lifting

Natsumi Hayashi knows what I'm talking about.

Natsumi Hayashi knows what I’m talking about.

I didn’t get around to writing yesterday. As a matter of fact, I didn’t even thing about it: I didn’t realize that I’d forgotten about it until about midday today when I happened to look down at my goal list and realized that I couldn’t check off the fact that I had done my writing for the day. This past week was not my best track record for staying On Task with many of my new year’s resolutions, but I’m going to go ahead and forgive myself because, while I may not have gotten around to some of my goals, the ones that I did get around to I spent a lot of time on.

As a matter of fact, when it comes to hours spent working on filmmaking I just reached a new milestone: 4000 hours towards my goal of 10,000. It’s not quite half way, but it is still a big step forward. I wish that I could say that, having  logged 4000 hours of practice, that this task of filmmaking were getting easier, but it isn’t true. I don’t think that is a bad thing, though: it means that I’m pushing myself to tackle more difficult projects and holding myself to higher standards and that is good for me. And while I might cry many tears and tear out many hairs worrying over these films that I’ve been working on, I do feel like I am making progress.

This milestone is coming at an auspicious time: we just finished our first day of filming for the first film project of the semester. Today was a brief day of respite and tomorrow we will have the second day of shooting. The relief of having the first day completed successfully is difficult to describe without waxing rhapsodic: it’s like a physical weight has been lifted, a mighty fist has unclenched, like venom has been sucked out of my liver. Food tastes better. Sleep is a deep, peaceful ocean of tranquility. Running errands at the mall (*shudder*) was accomplished with the composure of a Jedi knight. I feel certain that tomorrow I will find myself once again wound tighter than a seven day clock, but for now I am enjoying the relief of a day of rest.

~ by Gwydhar Gebien on January 25, 2014.

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