Monday was a day full of good news: so much so that it feels like a curse has been lifted. For many weeks I struggled with the feeling that my life had become suffocatingly small and mired in its own inertia, and now suddenly many things have come together quickly. I’m torn between not wanting to count my chickens before they are hatched and wanting to express my gratitude early and often at the sudden good fortune.

I’m erring on the side of gratitude.

In the morning I read through a collaboration agreement for a new screenplay project that I’ve been selected to write. I’m very excited about the project: a steampunk dystopia adventure that is going to be a riot to write and I can’t wait to get started. It’s a script for a USC thesis producing package (in which the student producer develops a feature script with a budget and schedule and marketing plan which could be used to pitch the film to production companies), which was the same kind thesis that I did to graduate, so it feels like a fitting way to pay it back to another grad student. And it’s even lightly paid- it’s for a student producer, after all, so we’re not exactly talking WGA rates, but it does mean that this will be my first professional project.

So holy cow is this gal going to get more than her money’s worth.

Anyway, I made my way in to work expecting a busy day, but got called into the bosses office just before lunch.

“It will be quick.” They promised. “And painless.”

It was. It was a raise. A good raise- a few months ago they’d mentioned that they’d talk to me about raising my compensation but I didn’t have hopes for much besides maybe a bump for cost of living. Well, it was enough of a raise to shift my paradigm from: “Oh my god I’m suffocating in a job that’s bleeding off the golden hours of my youth” to “My day job makes my dreams possible” which is a huge relief. It’s not the company or the work that I was struggling with, but the feeling like my work was unrecognized and not building towards anything.

So all in all life is on an upswing.


~ by Gwydhar Gebien on October 17, 2018.

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