Artwork by Edward Gorey

It’s the last day of the month and I’m feeling good but I’m definitely having one of those days when I just don’t feel like doing anything. In the morning before work, I knew I should have been querying my novel or applying for jobs or cutting theblooms off last week’s roses to try to propagate them using honey and potatoes (yes I DID see it on the internet, why do you ask?) but instead I just kinda putzed around on Twitter and stared off into space.

I think it’s ok to take a day to just do whatever. In today’s case that mostly means reading and surfing the internet. I like to believe I’m one of those phenomenally disciplined people who puts every minute to good use, but some days I’m just a blob and today is one of those days.

A happy blob, though. A calm blob. My brain isn’t tying itself in knots for the moment so I’m enjoying the tranquility even though I know it’s not likely to last. People keep posting such nice, supportive messages inn response to my tweet announcing that is gotten the first rejection letter for my novel and I’ve been making an effort to respond to each one. It had turned into a kind of vortex of support and good cheer which is nice and I’ve found a bunch of new people to follow.

I don’t really have a sense of what August is going to bring. July seemed curiously overwrought with emotional burdens and I’ve been putting some effort into making changes, but most of them are things that take time and there’s no good way to know when my proverbial ship might come in. Waiting is hard.

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~ by Gwydhar Gebien on July 31, 2019.

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